Genesis

If you ask me, "Crystal, what kind of day did you have today," I am going to answer, "Very, Very Busy." I went to work with Nelson, to help him at the office. I then had to go to the doctor. Nothing big, just a well visit. Then back to the office with Nelson. I answered a text message or two for him, while he was in a meeting, did some invoicing for the studio, and then the air conditioner repair person called. I had to come back home to let them in and let the dogs out. I don't know that I have mentioned yet, we have 5 dogs. Four of them are ESA (emotional support animals), and the 5th is ESA/Service. I then had to go back to Nelson's office to help send out more text messages for him and start making a list and a plan for what needs to be done to further his new, growing health insurance business. He is doing a really great job. During the time between the house and my return to his office, he called and told me that a few of the office workers love Scentsy, and want to order from me. So suddenly, I had a "Scentsy Bag Party," going on! That is always fun! It was spontaneous and fun. It helped me to reach a goal for this month. I have one more day and I hope to make some more sales tomorrow. During all of this, I had a lovely conversation with my adult daughter, the one who is speaking to us. It was really nice, and I loved spending that time with her on the phone. It was open, caring, and healing. After all of this, I also received an exciting phone call, and now I am off to the races with yet another project. I am not quite ready to announce this newest adventure. It will be great though, and I will be able to talk about it soon. I can't wait to share it. I just have a few details to nail down first.

It feels like a Genesis. A beginning. Genesis 1:1 NIV "In the beginning, God created..." I am excited to see what God is going to do. The Bible says, "Suddenly," and that is the way it all is, "Suddenly." God is at work, creating something that I cannot even perceive. I just feel it growing and coming into fruition. One day at a time, one step at a time. There is an order to it. God is not a God of chaos. He always has a plan for everything, even though we do not know what it is. I do know that it will all work for my good and for Nelson's good, and the good of our adult children. I trust in that fact. God's promises always come true. He is faithful and good. Even in this time of estrangement from our adult daughter, I know that something good is going to happen. I am expecting something good to happen. I do not want to fall into the darkness again. I am climbing out of the pit. God is helping on that climb. He will set my feet on a solid rock, and Nelson and I will have something better and stronger than we have ever had.

We are doing things differently now. Family Therapy is helping. My DBT is helping, My individual therapy is helping. Little by little I see light at the end of the tunnel. More changes are coming and I can't wait to see them happening. I am grateful for all those blessings. I am learning to count my blessings again. It is better to have gratitude for what you do have, than grieve what you don't have. I have no power over what my estranged daughter did. Truth be told, the estrangement has nothing to do with me or Nelson. It has to do with our estranged adult daughter and what she is struggling with on her own. I pray for her every single day, and I ask you to do the same. I am grateful she is my daughter. She has to do what she needs to do for herself. I have placed her in God's trustworthy hands. I am over the top grateful for my adult son and my other adult daughter. They are strong, and loving. They are willing to do the work to be a solid family. They are willing to learn and grow and be vulnerable. It is amazing to see. It is so overwhelming to see God at work, creating something brand new. "In the beginning..." Genesis. Thank you Lord.

P.S. I am going to have a portrait done of my dogs. I think it is high time!

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